I am depressed since years tbh and yes I kinda agree.
I kinda lack the force or power or circumstances to change certain important things in my life which make me deeply unhappy, and my theory is that the depression is just the body shutting off feelings in general to make it hurt less.
Unfortunately it seems to do the opposite though because that feeling of being dead inside is worse than feeling sad or angry or whatever imo. Feeling angry at least will give you power to do something, be it destructrive or constructive. Feeling sad will help you cope with things and get over them. Being dead inside wont really help in most cases.
But I remember how it was before I felt like that, life was truly so different.
Now atm the question is this: does my life suck because I am depressed or am I depressed because my life sucks? I guess it’s a bit of both.
Good post as usual fanbuddy, truly appreciate it. I will try my best.
That’s honestly a reason why I really would like to see Ian succeed eventually as well, but he seems so far off imo because he has no humility and self reflection whatsoever.
Continues to blame everything on others, of course, because it’s the easier way.
I am depressed since years tbh and yes I kinda agree.
I kinda lack the force or power or circumstances to change certain important things in my life which make me deeply unhappy, and my theory is that the depression is just the body shutting off feelings in general to make it hurt less.
Unfortunately it seems to do the opposite though because that feeling of being dead inside is worse than feeling sad or angry or whatever imo. Feeling angry at least will give you power to do something, be it destructrive or constructive. Feeling sad will help you cope with things and get over them. Being dead inside wont really help in most cases.
But I remember how it was before I felt like that, life was truly so different.
Now atm the question is this: does my life suck because I am depressed or am I depressed because my life sucks? I guess it’s a bit of both.
Turn that self-pity into self-hatred and start fuelling yourself to change, fan.
deleted by creator
Good post as usual fanbuddy, truly appreciate it. I will try my best. That’s honestly a reason why I really would like to see Ian succeed eventually as well, but he seems so far off imo because he has no humility and self reflection whatsoever.
Continues to blame everything on others, of course, because it’s the easier way.
deleted by creator